An unanswerable question..?

There is no way to know if we are here to "prove" ourselves, or not. If we had a teacher, "God," who we could see and hear, THEN some of us might strive to do our very BEST to p the "test," whatever that test might be. However, we have no CLUE who our "teacher" might be, or even if we HAVE a teacher. I am an atheist, but I tried to do the "right" stuff when I was younger, yet I was never comfortable attending church, because I had questions that my fellow church-goers never seemed to have, so I came to believe that I was a freak, and my self-worth was very low. I try to point out how illogical it is to believe in a being who is supposed to be EVERYWHERE, but yet is not part of OUR dimension, according to some Christians. That kind of thinking makes no sense to me.